is my thinking, u can dont agree, and u can dont read

i m not very happy today, but people use to be not happy..and there will be happy...thats how you happy coz u got not happy to compare.i m working in 3D design field..where i dont think it is a design..we din plan for idea and nothing much..is not artistic..is not creative..is totally selling technical skill and services..where i use to think i dont need to study university for this field..where i think..my creative mind..my style..is totally useless.somehow i dunno why people think of 3D, they wan it realistics,if not realistic is not a good 3D..where people show me..a realistic modelling girl..what for to model,just shoot picture la..no style at all, what for people still wanna create realistic thing where there is being created..thats my point of view,coz i dont understand..i dont understand even when drawing,why need a right propotion,why need a right perspective,u r not drawing wat u think of..you r following something and draw out something exactly same..totally no point..i dunno why human create so many limitation on everything they do..and they say is proffesional..while on my point of view..is not everything follow the rules that some people who think is important makes out a good artwork..u r a creative person, u create new things,...i really dont understad why people will say a realistic modelling is nice and good..i think the realistic style is totally no style at all..u can dont agree my point,but this is what i think...maybe i m different taste and different style wif many of my friends,where sometimes i think some artwork is nice, i think it is different ,what for u are pointing..like not detail enough,not nice the lighting..man..artist is to see the meaning and the message the artwork wanna send out..not to see the detail and the technical part of it..u can say piccasso is a sohai..coz his art work is totally not detail and totally no propotion and totally no perspective..but for me..i think u dunno how to appreciate..u cant get the meaning behind the artwork.where i think the same in 3D art work..i m not looking for a good skill artwork...i m looking for the meaning and the message it brings out from an art work..skill can be polish..i dont think a realistic 3D modelling girl is good..and i think is sucks..that people who show off their skill..i think is no point..i think many people is totally out of track and the thing they see in 3D is the detail and the lighting and the modelling....all is the technical part..where i think the artwork is sucks, even how fucking detail u do,i think is no difference,i more appreciate a child who sketch an artwork which got story behind than a some call proffessional 3D modeller and just model a realistic modelling to show of their skill...